Reason #2 I'm moving

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I can't take it

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Heyyyyy!!!!!

I forgot to share that I am buying a condo. Yep! I should be a homeowner on Christmas....well the day after but I'm sure if I could close on Christmas, I would.

For the past 3 years I've been living in an apartment in Largo. If you are familiar with the area, you may know of Steeplechase Apartments on Harry S Truman. I would ABSOLUTELY NEVER NEVER NEVER recommend that anyone stays there. It may be on the lower end compared to the few surrounding complexes but the management staff is piss poor. I now have bits of my ceiling on the floor as a result to water demage in the entry way of my apartment, water falling inside the wall from the ceiling down the side of the wall, and developing water demage above my fireplace and bed.

I'm absolutely thrilled that I will have a home to call my own...literally. Ummm yeah and my equity is sweeeeeeeeeeet!!!!

Because of the headaches I've endured, I have every intention on breaking my lease, with sufficient notice, and I will NOT pay last months rent. I absolutely will NOT. Why? Again, the problems I've has with management and because I tol them about this problem an entire year ago and this past week. I don't foresee anyone addressing the matter.

I should be out by the second week in January.

I do have to admit that the house buying process is a bit frustrating. In some ways you are subject to another person's schedule. I have a very strict schedule and being the Virgo I am, switching up the routine mid-game is a pain.

In spite of, I thank God for thr strength to stick with it this time.

I will be having two house warmings, one for family w/o the liquor and one with friends (game night and liquor). Yep!!! Love it.

The best thing about this is, I'm saving like heck, can't spend much now, but can't wait to spend after on some clothing items.

I'm Back ... ***waving hello*** At Peace/Resting in Faith

If it is one thing I'm sure of it is God always being the head of my life. I may have slipped but He's always grabbed me and chastized me when I needed it.

Take My Life (Holiness) - Bishop T.D. Jakes and the Potters House Mass Choir

Sorry loves, I've been concentrating on classes. I kinda lost the interest to write. I didn't want to fill my blog with aimless font. So today's entry will begin with 11/01/09 sermon delivered by my pastor and second father Rev. LP Washington and the lovely Reid Temple AME. LOL!

My father the Rev. Nathan Barnes and LP would be quite delighted with my spin on the text in light of what I've known them to deliver to the masses. I'm not straying too far but stretching it a bit. I actually began briefly discussing the text with someone who returned from deployment and how it relates to faith... But this morning, as I always receive via email, I read today's devotional and saw how James 2:18 may tie in..."Show me your faith without works; and I will show you my faith by my works" (NKJV). At some point I articulated to him that Faith and I are becoming good friends. Faith = peace of mind; resting in the belief that it is okay for me to not be in control of everything and that Grace and Mercy are my best friends, God is my Father and Christ is my Brother. With that, I have alot going for me. *eye wink*

Text came from John 21:1-14. You can read it at your own leisure. What is important to note is that when Christ appeared to the disciples, he was not recognized and this occurred after his crucifixion. Peter calmly articulated his expertise on his fishing experience. The fish were not biting that day and the men were about to return to shore. However, a single voice said to drop the net on the RIGHT side and try again....go deeper. They had two options, to ignore and keep it moving or to get over themselves and exercise a slither of obedience (faith in action and deed). I choose the word obedience because in many cases obedience is the silent and/or unconscious act of relying on faith. It was in obedience that I cleaned my room as a child, I completed homework, and adhered to the advice of my elders not knowing that as I get older, the simple things that I learned would reap greater rewards (i.e. being a responsible adult who is aware of her limits). Note Proverbs 22:6.

But there was more going on in this text...no one should just dwell on the surface content because at the end of the text, the instruction is to be fisher of MEN. Being called to minister or simply to exercise your belief in God's will over all things requires faith. It asks for one to remove him/herself out the equation, be obedient, and totally reliant on God whether you're at the mountaintop or in the valley. Don't sleep on the valley work either. Being in the valley requires one to prepare for that climb up and for what may be in store while sitting on top of the mountain. "I will show my faith by my works"...."faith without works is dead."

To resist typing way to much consider the following points:
1. In the text, the disciples returned BACK to a former task...being fishermen. They returned to a task that they were called out of. In that one should learn to LEAVE DEAD situations where they are...and never look back. Trust that if the situation is dead, no life will be springing up from up. And if a situation has a glimpse of life in it, sit back and wait on how God shifts things. He does not need your help considering he is the master of all things.
2. Casting one's net to the RIGHT side was a clear act of obedience...it was an act of attempting to move deeper. Trust and watch how things will manifest.
3. The disciples did not recognize Christ. Yet the scripture tells us that Christ's followers will know him by voice. This is an indication of their level of faith. They were tired and frustrated but like many kings of the OT failed to realize, all they had to do from the beginning was exercise some faith and call on God to provide. They failed to surrender themselves; their will, their know-how and expertise.

However, it briefly clicked for Peter, he dropped the net and in this single act (work) the nets were overflowing. From that the modern day disciple should understand that when it seems that our efforts lack aim or bears no fruit, tap into faith, surrender your will, and let God move.

And that's what I've been doing since July. A few things have changed, rearranged and removed out of my life. That request I made of God to remove all those that need to be removed has been going quite well. I'm in a calm state and even when things seem to be getting stressful of hectic, I know part of it is self-imposed and I just need to rest easy. Though a number of people are put off when I say "people come and go" I'm a bit more at ease with it knowing that my tree is being pruned and at the end of the day, I'm still content.

I'm just over some things. I'm not interested in anybody's drunken escapades or anyone's club events like that (I am still consulting on the club management end though), not interested with arguing with anyone, what he, she or it has to say outside of my presence, etc. For instance, to this day I am still hearing conflicting stories regarding what actually happened way back in May when I was drunk. It was brought up when I met up with Airforce but I really didn't want to address it because I knew his version would conflict and I will feel compelled to say ummm "you said you carried me downstairs while RW and other folks were getting pissy about whatever. However, leave it to RW, I was left by you to drown in my own vomit while you were partying all night and it was he and his cousin who ensured that I was alright. Nevermind the fact that RW said that you lied and said I was conversing with some dude to get me out of the house so you could continue flirting with some chick that he said that you had been screwing all along." Yep, all of that could have come out after hearing that I supposedly threatened RW over something that has absolutely NOTHING to do with me.

My little disagreement with RW way back in July/August had more to do with me distancing myself from the friendship because I saw character flaws I really didn't feel like associating myself with. And like many have told me, men themselves, when you reject some men, soon thereafter you all of a sudden become the most lying, manipulative, backstabbing, lound mouth, obnoxious, whore, itchb that has ever walked the face of the earth...until the next chick rejects. But again, it was just supposed to be friendship and nothing more. I can't stand to socialize with anyone that will smile in one's face and talk trash about them behind their backs...and these were his male friends. Example: I would say so-and-so is really cool and he's the sweetest when he talks about his girl. RW response would be, "that nigga is dirty too." Or he would start bad mouthing some chick...and in the back of my mind I'll say to myself, "but your still trying to chill with her." I'm left to say to myself..."well damn, that's a fairy like persona." Things like that make me wonder what you would say when I'm out of ear shot. In fact, I really don't talk trash behind anyone's back because we all have our own walk and we don't need anyone to verbally help us crawl. I would much rather state my grievance and dead the issue...no arguments would be necessary either. I know what it feels like to be the object of trash talk, and I know how it is, while re-evaluating the situation and trying to figure out where you went wrong in an effort to be cool, to feel broken.

But yeah...could have dropped that dime but I preferred biting my tongue because my appearance would be questioned. I don't believe in ripping up anyone's character. It can come back to bite you in the buttocks.

Letting go always seems to be the better option....the more peaceful, not wanting to be involved with the BS option. It took me a while to get to this point and that's because it took me a minute to say I'm okay with my short comings...they aren't the embodiment of me.